Zinging

I haven't gotten enough sleep in I don't know how long and my brain is zinging. I think last night I got between 2 and 3hrs, haven't gotten more than 5hrs any day this week, don't remember the last time I slept more than 1.5hrs without waking up. And have had 1 nightmareless night in about 3 months. So yea, I'm now at the past-tired-really-really-really hyper stage. J and I walked 4miles today and I'm still not tired. Tried to rest for a little bit, but every part of my being was like 'nope, sorry, get up, gotta find something to do' though I accomplished very little today. Did get some math done and finished the algebra II text though. But didn't memorize any new formulas or rules so it was actually pretty useless. I couldn't focus enough to memorize anything. So I just wrote them all down in my notebook and will go back when my thoughts aren't racing.

I've been up and pacing the house all day. No one to talk to. Nothing really to do that I can be successful at. Pre-calc was frustrating since I couldn't settle long enough to think straight.

I know I need to sleep more. I know how this goes. I can only last so long then I crash. And I crash and burn hard. It's not pretty.

Reason for this bout is stress of course. What else causes my insomnia?! It's always stress. That and the trazadone I was on for a few months quit working. Stupid meds. Rarely work the way they're supposed to or long enough to keep me at a state of stasis. Blah, blah, blah, I've said all of this to everyone thousands of times. Actually no I probably haven't, I just say stuff in my head and think I've said it outloud to people. Can make for some fun 'conversations' let me tell you. Drives my friend L nuts.

Can you imagine what I'd be like if I drank coffee?? I haven't even had any chocolate in days and days, weeks and weeks. Gad I don't even want to think about it.

Trying to kill time between now and when I need to leave to go teach tonight. I've run out of things to medle with. And I'm getting another damn migraine and have no meds to nip it in the bud with. Class will be a brilliantly thrilling adventure today. Let's hope I don't vomit in the nice student who is driving me home's car. That would be a quick ending to the start of a very useful student/instructor-person who drives/me who doesn't relationship.