short fuse

The past 24hrs my fuse has been incredibly short. I think it's a combo of the heat, not enough sleep and a constant low grade headache.

My senses have been at a over heightened high and any noise from the traffic outside, the neighbors "beep beep" of their car alarm, the neighborhood dogs, my own dogs, the crickets, etc are all blowing my fuse. I can barely take it anymore!

Tonight my father promised to try to find my a/c unit that has been lost in their basement for the past year and bring it over. Though the noise from that will also drive me insane, I'm hoping that it as just 1 noise as opposed to the thousands of other uncontrollable outside noises will give my over taxed nervous system some form of a break. That and the cool air it produces possibly make it so I can sleep more than 2hrs at a stretch.

Tomorrow a friend and I are off to go visit the PWD breeder and her dogs. Then Sunday I have an interview with FGD. I'm hoping the interview goes well and they tell me I can have a dog from them. I'm more than hoping, I'm praying it goes well. The idea of having to go through training my own dog and possibly failing all over again right now is enough to make me cry.

My anxiety about school is also getting worse. my T dr r keeps trying to remind me that maybe this time around college will be more user friendly, that I have better coping skills than last time, that I have better supports in place, that so far my interactions with the college staff have gone exceedingly well, but I'm still freaking out. I e-mailed my prof over a week ago to start getting a move on some of the supports I will need, but so far I have heard nothing back. What if he's completely non supportive? It'll do me no good if disability services is helpful, but my actual prof is against the supports. He can make my life a living hell if he wants. I'm hoping he doesn't want to.

I also learned that next week both my roof and my porch are getting replaced. Which means I'm displaced to my parent's house most of the week. That's a huge disruption to my schedule and routine which is also stressing me out.

I just need to survive the next 3 weeks. Get through my guide dog school interviews. Get started with school. Pray the weather cools off. Get through the house construction. Get my nervous system to chill out.

Heavens I wish it would cool off. This weather is a killer.