roller coaster

this week has been miserable. for a while i'm doing ok, then i'm not. monday i was not, tuesday i was not until the very end of the day, yesterday i did ok for most of the day, mum and i went to see up, i laughed harder than i have in a long time, very funny movie, then 9:30 came and i was not ok, this morning is not going well. i'm exhausted even though i slept for over 12hrs. same thing happened yesterday. i don't want to do anything. i can't focus enough to study. i want to curl up on the couch, my muscles all ache and i can't tell if that's from the stress of holding myself together or from my fibro. i need them to relax so i don't hurt so much. i'm tired. and my brain is all cloudy. i feel like i'm functioning through a misty day. if my knees stop hurting i will take j for a walk to the coffee shop. no coffee for me but maybe it'll be good for me to get out of the house. i'm really very tired.