Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Anger Management

My father has an anger management problem and it freaks me out. Tonight it showed up as "road rage" as he drove me home from dinner with the family. A guy talking on the cell phone cut him off. He's going to get himself killed or cause an accident and kill someone else. And I don't like that idea.

I told him to stop it, I reminded him about road rage. he then proceeded to yell at me "That I can't even have an opinion?!" And that "It's not fair!" I then told him, "Life's not fair, get over it."

I don't understand how someone can get that angry with someone they don't even know. I don't understand how someone can get that angry, that fast, to begin with (I tend not to get angry with other people/animals/outside objects. If I'm going to be angry at anything it's at myself).

I absolutely hate being around all of that stress, yelling, screaming and anger. I grew up with it. I hated it then. I hate it now. Getting out of their house and moving out on my own away from that environment was the best thing that I ever did for my mental health and overall well being.

But he's been that way my entire life. He doesn't see a problem with it. He chooses not to address it. He's not going to change.

I swear it will kill him. And that will be a bad day.

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