It's called 'getting better'

I never really thought I would hear that phrase- "It's called 'getting better.'" But he's right, 6 years ago I never would have thought that I'd ever be going back to college. 6 years ago I never thought I'd ever go on a date with a guy. 6 years ago I'd never thought I'd be living in a home of my own. 6 years ago I was so sucked into just trying to survive that I never thought survival was possible.

But lately things have become more 'possible' rather than a constant struggle and fight for just basic daily survival. I feel like I have a future. That I can look past just today. There are days that are more than just 'one foot in front of the other.'

And I guess that is what is called 'getting better.'

As he said, I'm still autistic, I'll never be neurotypical nor do I want to be. I'll always have the challenges that presents. I'll probably always have some degree of the noise. I'll probably always be prone to depression. I'll still struggle with insomnia. But as a whole I am 'getting better'.

There are and will be times when life is doable, is more than just doable. Is actually enjoyable.

People as a species don't scare me so much anymore. Today he even said I'm getting better at reading and interpreting and evaluating emotions. Something that is such a foreign language to me. I'm slowly improving in that department.

It's still sinking in, that phrase "It's called 'getting better.'" But I think it's something to be proud of. It's something I once never thought was possible. I kind of like the sound of it.